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After The Storm

In sane reflection,

enlightened serenity

comes after a storm.

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©Jacqui Slade

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Closing Down

So I am closing down my business.

I feel quite gutted to be honest and a feeling that I have failed.

It hasn’t helped that I have felt that family members haven’t been supportive and no encouragement just criticism 

The art market is very hard and Etsy and EBay and all the other online market places are saturated with people just like me.

I have worked so hard not only on creating but on marketing myself and I have spent loads on advertising but it’s not viable.

I can’t keep throwing money at something that is clearly failing when I get hardly any sales and it’s not that my art is expensive it’s literally been priced up so it works out on some pieces I’m working for less than 25p an hour so what is the point.

It’s knocked my confidence quite a bit and I think maybe my art is rubbish but the problem is like I say it’s a hard and very competitive market to break into and I haven’t got the energy or heart to go on anymore when I know I am never going to get close to earning the measly £50 a week I had hoped. 

If I kept on going I would be lucky to earn it in a year

Income support were not a help either you cannot meet with them face to face for advice when thinking of self employment and they said I could keep benefits for 6 months and then changed their minds because I was working on my business for 16 hours a week

All I have achieved is nothing literally it has created more problems 

Now You Are A Ghost 

We used to be so close

but now you are a ghost.

Someone I hardly see.

You keep on hurting me.

.

Interested in yourself

I feel that I am shelved

in convenience for you

picked up when you want to

.

divulge all of your stress

and your unhappiness.

Never ask how I am,

don’t really give a damn.

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Your ego always shuns.

I love you but I’m done.

Won’t beg for attention

I’ll take your rejection.

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©Jacqui Slade

Toolbox 

Sometimes life throws a

spanner in the works.

It’s always when you

think you have nailed it

.

that it wrenches at

your heart, prising it

open, cutting you with

its saw. Often it

.

will drive you nuts but

don’t bolt to go and

get hammered thinking

you’re in a state of

.

disrepair. Screw your

negativity.

All you need is a

toolbox to fix you.

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©Jacqui Slade